Mental Healing

Today is the official start of my vacation. Normally I would try to sleep in as long as possible, but I was awake at 6:30! I was sick to my stomach. My heart was still aching for the families and friends of those who witnessed yesterday in CT and those who lost their precious babies and family members. If I, someone who no connection to these families, feel this way...what must those parents be feeling this morning who lost their child? I wish there was something I could do. I know from recent loss of a loved one...that there isn't too much anyone can say to help the hurt.

I can't help but put myself in the parents' shoes. I could not imagine my child having to be in his classroom and see his teachers and classmates being murdered and waiting in fear for the gunman to turn his way. These children were so young...most not knowing how to protect themselves. Too young to fully understand what was going on. I could not imagine the fear and confusion going on in their innocent little minds. I couldn't imagine if anyone did survive what emotional healing they would need after seeing such a horrific scene. I am comforted in knowing that they are still alive...in heaven(because I believe children that young go to heaven). I am comforted in knowing that they will never have to see evil or hear evil again. My prayer is that these families have this same comfort. It is the only thing that can get you through a situation like this.

An image of a husband and wife running into the school to hopefully go to get their child keeps playing through my mind. I didn't want to watch the news but it came on yesterday. I watched as this couple ran onto the school grounds with a look of fear and hope that their child was not harmed. Then moments later you see that couple carrying their child...who they probably haven't carried in a few years because he was past that age. You could see the relief in their faces..but still could see a lot of grief. I pray for those who were not able to get their child and comfort them and hold them. I know so many people yesterday held their own children a little longer and more.***FYI-Shane just came in as I finished that sentence and asked to sit on my lap. I have to say most of the time I say "no, mommy is writing or mommy is busy". Of course this time I welcomed the chance to have him cuddle with me:). He wanted me to warm him up...he said I was comfy...and also wanted a back rub..lol.***

I also can't help but think of the shooter. I think he took the cowardly and selfish way out. I have to be honest...in situations like this that end in suicide after innocent people have been shot...I always wonder why they just didn't take their own life first??? Mental Illness is being thrown around a lot. I am very sensitive to those who suffer from any mental illness. I have many family members who are bipolar and schizophrenic. I have always had compassion for those who suffer from a mental illness. In fact, two days ago, I looked into volunteering at a place who helps those who suffer from anxiety, depression, being bipolar and/or schizophrenic. Most people would say these people are crazy. That hurts my heart when I hear that. It is the same as someone who is mentally challenged being called retarded. I just hate that word. My interest and passion for those who are mentally ill stemmed from my own mental instabilities. I am not saying that I am clinically mentally ill...although The Hubs may say otherwise...but I do suffer from anxiety. It has been the worst this year. It has caused me to live in fear and constant panic. It comes and goes...but this year has been the worst. It started to get bad earlier this year...I got it under control through natural remedies and GOD. Really God first....then the natural stuff:). Then my father in law passed away and it started all over again.

I hate to make this tragedy about myself, but I really feel like God is pushing me(yes pushing) in a direction to help those who are mentally ill. I want to help kids and adults like Adam Lanza, so they don't feel like killing others and themselves are the only answers to the evil thoughts that dance around in their heads. Mentally ill people have allowed Satan to take rule over their thoughts. I wrestled with the idea of reaching these people. How do they even come to know and understand God's love? I thought of my own experience. I was saved at a young age and God has given me comfort in my moments of weakness. After struggling with panic attacks starting from around 3rd grade, in my Junior year I finally knelt down next to my bed and gave it all to God. And guess what??? He took it. It was not until about two years ago until I started up again with these panic attacks. I was not allowing God to take over my thoughts and was not allowing him to comfort me. I was left to my own thoughts of feeling not good enough...that no one liked me and that I was crazy! When you focus on these things that are not from God and allow fear to consume your thoughts that is when you can get yourself in trouble. That is when you do things that no other person who is right in their mind can comprehend. But.........there is hope and there is help. The hope is that you can lay all your fears aside and give them to God. It does require you to get your life right. Reading God's word is such a comfort and not just reading but knowing what God's word is saying and living out a life pleasing to Him. Praying often was also a huge help for me. I have always been shy...it sucks!!! I hate it. I have come to realize that being quiet is ok...but being shy..not so much. I think because being shy is a result of being fearful and that is not from God.

I was recently at a hockey game. The idea of getting involved in an organization that helped those with mental illnesses was fresh on my mind. I had trouble finding a faith based program...but God had put it on my heart to serve at a few different places. Anyways, I saw an ad on one of the big screens at the game, from a place in Rancho that specialized in helping those with bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, anxiety, depression...etc. I was so happy to see that they were available and around to help those in need. I questioned my own ability to help these people. I started in with the excuses of lack of time to help...itt was too far for me to help and so on. I checked out their website. I was really bummed to see that under their resource list that they were supporters of Planned Parenthood...waa waa waaaaaa!!!! That was a sign though for me that I needed to go into another direction and support a ministry here is Riverside and a place that shares the same views as I do. I emailed them and am awaiting to hear a response back so hopefully I can get plugged in there. It isn't a place that is specifically for those who suffer from a mental illness, but for people with addictions which is a similar evil to overcome. So...hopefully something comes from it. I think I may get more from it than those in the program:).

Yesterday was rough. I did not want to go hang out with anyone. Did not want to laugh...just wanted to be with my little man. I began to be fearful. I didn't really even want to go out. But that is what the enemy wants. He wants this to consume me with fear. The thought of home-schooling came about in my head. That thought has never popped into my head, because I am a horrible teacher and I like the little break I get:). I think that was fear creeping in. As parents we naturally want to protect our children...or at least that is what we should do. I could not imagine what those parents were feeling yesterday and days to come. They would give anything I am sure to be able to protect their babies. The teachers who shielded their students are absolute heroes. My flesh does not want to pray for the family of Adam Lanza, but they lost three people yesterday. I don't know if the parents had parents still living or siblings, but they too must be grieving. The brother Ryan went through a lot as well. I pray for his mental stability. May we be mindful of those around us who are hurting and struggling. May we treat others with compassion and get help to those who need it. Thanks for reading. Writing is my therapy. Words don't come out right when I speak them...so therefore I write.

Christmas Time is Here

The Christmas Elves have been busy at our household these past few days! By Elves I mean The Hubs...who was in charge of taking down the decor and that is where his help ends, as I no longer require his assistance in the "festivizing" of our home. You see he would like colored lights and tinsel on his Christmas Tree. The idea of that chills my bones and so I bring out his one Santa that he randomly chose while he was randomly at Michael's. Shane also helped and I let him...a little more willingly than The Hubs...but I still kept my eye on him. I know Christmas should be more about the children..but lets face it..they usually don't have the most sophisticated taste and that just can not be allowed in my Christmas fa la la Land! Then the last Christmas helper was my Mom. Whom I get my Christmas Ideals from and who made me a little decor crazy...in a good way!!!! We both like that lodge cabin feel. Gingham, burlap, plaid, fresh greenery...no fake garland business...no cheesy Santas. I like to add a little glam as well. I blame it all on blogs and Pottery Barn:). But......if you are into cheesy Santas...tinsel and a singing fish that sings " Feliz Navidad" I still love you. I LOVE anything Christmas. It is so fun for me to see how people decorate for the holidays. I can't help but smile:). So, I want to share with you a little of our home around Christmas Time! 

Accents

This is a light hearted post about accents...or accessories in the home. Particularly my home. Did you happen to see the line of home decor items that Target recently had of gold items? I wanted them all!!! They were right up my design alley. I never thought I would be a gold girl. I hate to say this but I really don't like silver anymore!!???!!. I am sure that will change over the years..but for now give me gold!!!! I like that it is classy and traditional but it can also glam up a space. I know some people will just never get over gold looking like something their Grandma would decorate with but believe me it is cool! Before I show you some of the gold accents that have come to live with me...let me show you some pillows...that I realllllly love and only took me nearly 3 years to finally purchase them!!!! I have to say I used(use)??? to buy things only on clearance for my home. I have a problem paying full price for anything, but it left me with a bunch of pieces that I did not like and a home that just wasn't me. I still have a hard time not buying things on clearance...just because they are cheap...but I am getting better.

Anyhoo...I needed some new pillows for my living room. This room was a collection of all of our old pieces and it was just dark and boring and not working for me. I removed the ugly faded lime green slipcovers from my couch shortly after moving to the house we are in now. Please don't judge me about my lime green slipcovers...they were on clearance and so were lime green pillows to match. In my defense they aren't electric lime...but still not my style really. Anyways, I removed the slipcovers but left on the pillows. I just did not like them...but pillows can be pricey and I did not want to make the same mistake again and purchase pillows that were just "ok". I wanted pillows that I would really enjoy looking at. I really do have a passion for interior design...so if all this talk about the importance of pillows is weird..I apologize...but I love pillows and am not afraid to say it:). So, speed forward to about a month ago..I picked up these beauties at Stein Mart, of all places. I needed pillows that were a large scale geometric because my curtains are pretty busy with some floral designs (which I just took down and exchanged for solids...ahhhggghhh).

Confession-These did happen to be on clearance...but they were perfect!!! And Stein Mart also happened to have an extra % off that day...so they ended up only being like 8.00 each:)

Saturday I was at Target for the second time this week and noticed some pillows that were just what I had been looking for(for the other sofa in my living room). They had all the colors of my room...but I was afraid they would clash with my curtains( they did..hence the switcheroo of curtains that went on last night). They were not on sale and were 24.99 a piece. Really not that bad...but I knew they would go on sale. And they did the very next day! Only 10% off...but...there just happened to be a buy one get one 50% off coupon. SCORE! So for only around 34.00 I got two:)

And finally here are the gold accessories that I was keeping my eye on. These I did not necessarily NEED...but I really just wanted them and they were 70% off...I have a serious problem!!!

These tall beauties are just what my vanity needed or wanted, I should say(only 3.00 ea). My room is a little modern glam(modern for the Hubs and glam for me). Oh and that brush and hand mirror (under my perfume) is from my Nana:) I use to play with those all the time in her guest bedroom when she lived in CA years ago!

This will eventually go on my bed...if I ever decide on a comforter!!!!

This is in my living room...so pretty:)

I am done buying items for my home now. I went through all of the rooms in my house and am getting rid of a ton of stuff. Although, now I just added more. Happy designing! 

If anyone ever wants some help I would LOVE to help. I know the basics.I am not a professional, but it is my passion and I have a million ideas floating around my head and Pinterest(for safe keeping). You really don't have to spend a whole lot of money updating your space. Sometimes, just moving a few things around (like my curtains) can really change the whole look of a space. I love shopping my other rooms and re-decorating another room with those pieces. Plus I need to stop moving things around in my house...the Hubs never notices but I am certain he will catch on soon...maybe not??!!! :)

Shut it, Dora!!!

You know your day was a bit hectic when you realized you did not yet brush your teeth and it was 5:30...PM. You also did not feed your dog until 5pm and did not step outside until you left for the evening at 7pm. Now I want to say there are a lot of blog posts where bloggers use this format to complain and want you to know about how busy they have been and how tired they are and want you to join them in their misery. This blog post is....just that. I am going to vent. Why? Because it's my blog and I can vent if I want to.

The Hubs has been in a lot of pain lately due to carpal tunnel. We have been counting down the days until his surgery date...which was on Monday!!! Today I get a text from him stating that they changed it to Tuesday:( Which is a bummer because 1)that is one extra day of pain...poor guy...2)Shane has his first big Preschool Halloween Parade that I have to go to....and 3)we had already moved another important event that was suppose to be on Monday...but changed it so he could get in as early as possible. I feel so bad for The Hubs. The only thing I could think of to relate to having to wait another day for surgery was....having to go pee and finally making it home...to find someone in the bathroom!!!! Ok...that probably isn't at all close to how it feels to have to wait another day for surgery...but it is all I could come up with:).

By about mid-day it almost became comical about how many times something did not go the way I planned. I felt like I was moving in slow motion all day. It was a non-school day for Shane and he was very needy. My mama guilt had arrived in full force. I then realized that I had so much work that I was going to have to put in some over time. Again, feeling guilty for ignoring Shane all day...I now just added two more hours to my work day. I just kept thinking about the three days that I will have off. I am taking Friday, Monday and Tuesday off. (Now you probably don't feel bad for me anymore). Some of you might be thinking...get over it...this is my typical day!! Feeling a little guilty I turned the tv back on after a few hours of turning it off because I could not take Dora's voice any longer. She was trying to wake up the map...and then finally after yelling "Map wake up" 100 times the map wakes up and then I am like "go back to sleep map"!!! Callate Dora!!!! Needless to say I was completely out of patience.

 I get overwhelmed super easy. I am totally laid back and try not to let too much get to me....but when I can't do it all I know that I haven't been relying on God for that extra support. Isn't it great to have someone you know will always be there for you and completely understands what you are going through? Even though I have an understanding husband and friends who lend their ear. God gives me a peace like no other. Love the verse, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest". Matthew 11:28. If you are feeling guilty for ignoring a child or two, not getting work done, skipping a few cleaning days or not spending time doing things you enjoy...find comfort in this verse.

I find myself constantly having to recharge myself. The best way to do this is to spend time with God. We all know it, but it seems like it is impossible to fit in another thing. Again, God's word reminds us that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". Phil 4:13 Does that mean we need to over exert ourselves and then question why we are always so tired??? I don't think so. I think God will give us the energy we need to do the things that please him. My life is full of so many wonderful moments. My prayer is to try and stop and truly enjoy them and be thankful for each new day God gives me. 

My name is Summer and I love Faux Bamboo

I have a strange obsession for faux bamboo. There is no help out there for this rare condition...so I scour Craigslist and FB groups looking for any signs of faux bamboo pieces. I did take a little bit of a break after my last purchase which I wrote about here (which I just realized was almost two years ago...oh my). When I found that dresser I made the Hubs and a friend drive far far away to the ghetto, risking their lives to pick up the goods. I can tell you I may have even dreamed about that dresser. It haunted me! I saw it redone like this(below) and was like wow...I need one of those and so it began.

Once I got it home though..I could not decide if I wanted to paint it. It had this light yellowish vintage color that kind of grew on me. I also found some nightstands for my master bedroom on Craigslist that were another score(not faux bamboo)!!! They had the most amazing handle pulls(another obsession) and really great legs! I painted those white, ...come take a look here. Anyways, after painting those white I thought my dresser would look amazing a glossy white??? But...I really like this dark grey. I was also undecided on the colors for my master so that was an issue as well. I knew I wanted grey, white and gold...but the pop of color was scaring me. I thought yellow..but that might compete with the gold. Then I thought navy..then turquoise or even coral(hubs wouldn't like that though). So, for now it remains in it's natural vintage 70's yellow.

Guess what??? I was added to a group on  Facebook (thank you Mrs. Degrado) called Everything but the Kitchen Sink. Oh.My.Word.....love it. And what did I find??? My matching nightstands, mirror and a dresser(not a highboy like above, but a lower...longer one). And for how much you ask??? 100 smackeroos for all 4 pieces!!! Oh happy day!!!! And this time they were located in riverside. So, I only have the two nightstands because that is all we could fit in our car. But soon I will be united with my dresser and mirror..I coming for you I promise!!!! I decided to use the nightstands as some desperately needed storage at the foot of our bed. I am just going to place them side by side. I painted these a lovely "Granite" grey by Rust-Oleum. I did sand them first as they have a laminate top and some of the paint was peeling. They turned out gorgeous. I can not wait to put them into our room. I will wait though because last time I spray painted my other nightstands I was impatient and put them in our room way to early and the smell of spray paint nearly killed us all!!!! So...whata think??? I am in love.....

Before...not bad but could use some sprucing up

Primed...looks good in white too:)

Finished! Love this Granite color. Once I get a few more items for my master I will do the big reveal!

What I've been up to....

It has been awhile since I last posted. I have been so busy with little things here and there. Shane had the flu two weeks ago and then got a bad cough last week...oh the joys of Preschool and Nursery! It is my pet peeve when people bring their sick kids to school or church. Shane's Preschool will send the kid home so that is good. Anyways, I have been stuck at home, so we have had many movie marathons and I even finished a few projects! Scott has also been away on business for the last few days so I have really had some free time to do things I have been putting off. Not that he doesn't allow me to do them...but when he is home I want to spend time with him and don't get to my projects like I should. He has that effect on me:). I can't stand to be away from him!!! But, a little time away is always good...can I get an AMEN?!?!

Ok...so one of the projects I completed was actually for my wonderful hubs. Tomorrow marks two months since Gary went home to be with the Lord. There is such a big whole in our lives. It is hard that we can't share all the Shane stories with him. It is hard that we can't get together and have him cook up some good ol' BBQ. It is really hard that his chair is empty and that we can no longer learn from him and no longer touch, speak or just hang out anymore. But, the great thing about knowing someone so memorable is just that...his memory lives on. His stories, advice and love are still with us. Scott spoke about his dad at the memorial and told stories about how much he taught him. That is one of the best qualities in a dad. A friend of mine posted this on her Facebook about Motherhood but I changed it to Fatherhood because it is true for both(I think the nurturing part is more for mothers though):

"And the fundamental mission of fatherhood now is the same as it always was: to nurture, protect, and instruct children, to create a home environment that enables them to learn and grow, to help them develop a heart for God and His purposes, and to send them out into the world prepared to live both fully and meaningfully. It’s up to us to embrace that mission as our own, trusting God to walk us through the details and to use our willing fathers’ hands as instruments of his blessings.” 

Fatherhood was something Gary did well. Scott was very equipped to take on the world..both as a believer and as a man. 

Gary loved knives, along with many other things, and in fact had three knives on him when he passed:). One was a 503 Buck knife. Scott has kept that in his pocket since his dad passed. He had mentioned that he was afraid of losing it and wanted to display it somehow. So, of course, being that my love language is to buy people stuff and one of my gifts is listening to what people need and making it happen, I decided I needed to make something. I went off to Joann's and picked up a shadow box. It was actually one that had a place for a photo and to display a graduation tassel. The knife fit perfectly into that spot!!!. I added a picture of Scott and Gary when Scott was about 6 months old and the verse: "As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another" Proverbs 27:17.  I thought this was perfect since it was exactly what Gary did, not only for his sons, but for everyone he met. He was a teacher. Also, I thought it was a great verse to go along with the knife. I finished it up one night and handed it to Scott. He said it was the best present he ever received. It filled my heart right up. When someone you love so much is hurting it is hard to find the right words to say. Thankfully God already had them all written for me and blessed Scott and I with that verse! I also purchased him a new 503 Buck knife so he could still have a knife to carry:)

 

Firsts

This week was a week of firsts in our household. Shane had his first dentist appointment on Monday. He did really well! I love the dentist so I told him all about how great it was and I didn't even have to tell a white lie. I really do love the dentist..probably because I had a great dentist for my first visit...so I was really hoping Shane did too. He got to pick a few dinosaurs from the treasure chest at the end so it was all good:). Daddy took him as I had to work....unfortunately he had two cavities!!! That was what I suspected and the reason for taking him. If I can give some advice...get your young ones in to see the dentist before the age of 3. I don't know how long he had the cavities but I noticed some discoloration and took him right in. I am really aware of people's teeth. I love teeth! I know total weirdo. I thought I was doing everything right as far as dental hygiene goes. In reality I was soooo not. I did not add him to my dental insurance this year. There was so many different opinions on when you should take your child for the first time. Most said not until 5 or even 6-7!!! Others said as soon as they get teeth. I was going to add him on next year...but if you have the chance I would do it at age 3 or really even 2. I also think that kid's toothpaste is a joke. I am going to switch him to the next level...the one that they can't swallow. I realized he should have already been using the other one as the tube of the one that is safe to swallow is up to 24 months....mama fail!!! Also, need to floss more and brush more. So, this talk about oral hygiene has gone on far too long... I am sure I lost some of you a few sentences ago..but  the bottom line is...I thought I was doing something well and I was not. Now makes me think of other areas I am failing in...Oye! This mother thing is soooo hard!

Ok, so next first! Shane started Preschool on Tuesday! He absolutely loves it. Now these are all firsts for Shane, but also are firsts for mama and daddy. We really tried to hold ourselves together for the first day. It is ok for a 3 year old to cry but not so much for 30 somethings! Although almost all the parents had tears in their eyes:(. We walked in to his classroom totally expecting to be there for awhile. We observed all the new sights...the kids and parents...the teacher(whom of which has already scolded me twice...story to come later). We were settling in when Shane asks us, "Are you staying here with me"? Daddy tells him "We will have to leave today, but  we will stay until you are comfortable". Shane then proceeds to tell us he is comfortable and that we may leave now. What??? Who are you??? My shy little one...who doesn't know a soul just told us to leave!!??!! Well then..ok daddy lets go. We kind of looked at each other..like.."is this ok?...are you ready??? NO..No I am NOT ready..but this is great for Shane and we need to be adults and leave. So we told him good bye and he proceeded to find something and someone to play with. We of course stood outside and spied on him like any normal parent would. And just like that..he was a Preschooler. He ran to the door when daddy was ready to take him today for his second day. It was such a relief to have him be so confident and ready for school. It really helped us too...we didn't have a meltdown...because Shane was strong and ready...so we needed to be too:).

Now, to the story about the teacher scolding me...twice. Scott and I have a bit of a problem with authority. I know that is not good...we have worked on it and are getting better. Scott is really good with it now actually... it is me that really struggles. You see I HATE it when someone tells me what to do! Like I could totally want to do something and am on my way to do something and then someone tells me to do exactly what I was going to do and I break down. I get major attitude and immediately do not like that person. It is a horrible quality I know...but I am keeping it real here on Flour Power...mmmkay??!!! So, there are these "disaster kits" we had to fill up in case of an emergency. You know the ones that we never used as kids...the ones we always get back at the end of the year and eat whatever is still edible. The ones that have really nasty food and are like "thanks Mom for the package of orange crackers and fake cheese". I guess if there was a disaster that would be cool...but really we all know we are not going to use them. But, I got to thinking that it is 2012 and maybe the end of the world so there is a chance he would need it...just kidding!!! As the years go by there is a more probable chance that our kids may actually need it...so anyways... I hand our kit in at the Open House...as soon as I hand it to the teacher she (very loudly) announces to me that my disaster kit is subpar and will not do. Ok whatever lady...did you see the beef jerky and gatorade???..it is about quality not quantity. Those other kids are totally going to be jealous of Shane's disaster kit. She hands it back and I walk back defeated as she mentions to me there needs to be enough for 2-3 days. I mumble "that was enough for 2-3 days..Shane's a light eater". Scott laughs at me and tells me that within only minutes I have already been scolded by the teacher. Teacher's think they know everything like they are in charge or something...like they do this every year...whatever!!!!

So, I went to Target and totally got way too much and packed it so full that I could barely close the ziplock. Yep, real adult like:). So, then scolding #2 came when I was picking Shane up on the first day. I was all excited. He was sitting in a circle waiting for me. He saw me, we exchanged a big grin and the teacher proceeds to tell me that I signed him in wrong. Oh, excuse me, there were no instructions I was just following what the person before me did. You see I am a rule follower...if there are clear rules I am good. I will follow...but heaven forbid you tell me I did something wrong...now I will not follow any of your rules...hahaha...so kidding...kinda. Shane is a rule follower too. He loves to please us and everyone around. So, as much as I kid, I think this year will be a  great learning experience for Shane, but also for mama:).
  

Labor Day Weekend Projects

I was soooo looking forward to having a day off. I have been working so much OT that I was beginning to see my house quickly turning into a disaster area. Laundry was piling up...along with the dishes....my backyard was an absolute mess because of the bad winds we had. I decided to take what little "extra" time I had last week to conquer all the mess so I could relax this weekend and work on fun projects. I was really quite productive, especially following the "Make the Most of Your Mornings" series. I caught up on everything and decided that I would head over to Joanns on Saturday and pick up some fabric. The didn't have the best selection...but I was determined to not walk away empty handed..but also not with something I did not love. 

I was looking for some fabric to cover some lamp shades that were in my bedroom and also one in my entryway. They needed some sprucing up. The lampshades in my Master bedroom(you can see below) were a cream color and a little bent up. I had purchased some trim when I thought I was going with a navy/gold color scheme.. So...anyways they never really looked that great in the room.

BEFORE

Rise and Shine!

Are you a morning person? You know the type the rises and shines. The type that wakes up, puts on a pot of coffee, goes for a morning jog, showers, reads the paper and eats a nutritious breakfast??? I am NOT. In fact if you try to wake me up and I am not ready you may get punched in the face or kicked "accidentally". I have never been a morning person, but I really, really, really want to be. 

Working from home does not help my horrible morning skills. I wake up 10 minutes before I have to clock in. Shortly after Shane wakes up and I frantically try to through some sort of breakfast together. It is just not a good way to start the morning. I know that I may never be one to wake up at 5 or heck even 6 but if I could just get in a morning exercise and read a devotion that would be AWESOME! 

I am a night owl. I love staying up late. It has wreaked havoc on my life though. I am normally in bed by midnight. Which still gives me about 7 plus hours of sleep, once I do fall asleep. So, what am I going to do about this you may ask???? Well, I saw a new series on of my favorite websites that I follow called "Make the Most of your Mornings". I quickly ignored that post, even though it was something I have been wanting to change. I did not want to "be inspired" about my morning situation. I enjoy my sleep thank you...no need to go and read how the others live in the wee hours of the morning. Then I saw another post(it is a 3 week series). Ok, ok I will check it out. It. was. amazing! They are on day 12 I believe. The writer, Money Saving Mom, gives you a very simple plan to follow to get in gear in the morning. It all really starts with your nights. One of the first things she asked us to do was to set a bed time...what??? You mean be an adult and go to bed at a sensible time? How could this possibly make me less of a monster in the morning? 

So, I decide to try it. I set my alarm for 7:30, twenty minutes before I normally get up (go big or go back to sleep..right!!!). Well, it did not go well...I fell back asleep and woke up 10 minutes after 8. URGGGHHHH. But...I decided not to let that ruin my other plans. I started working and what is really strange is my son slept until 9:30 so I got to work uninterrupted for a good hour and a half! If I would have woken up at 7:30 I could have had even more time to get some things done before I started work at 8. I have to say though I kept my attitude positive and had a really productive day. I printed out a daily task sheet or to-do list from Money Saving Mom's website that was really helpful. 

I decided that my new bedtime would be anywhere from 10-11pm. With my new wake up time of 7am that would give me 9-10 hours of sleep. Which in reality gives me more sleep time. My brain doesn't quite get the concept yet. I think going to be early(which 10 would be wayyyyy early to me) and waking up early, no matter how much more sleep I am getting, is just sooo hard. But in the end I know I will be more equipped to take on the day.

So here is my new schedule. I haven't begun to come close to mastering it...but that is ok. Baby steps. Shoot if I get dressed before noon that will be a huge accomplishment in itself. I feel like such a grown-up!!!!

7:00: WAKE UP and get dressed

Feed the dog

Make a cup o' tea

Turn on sprinklers

Make breakfast

Read...bible...devotion or some sort of book

Work out ( I will switch this up..reading one day..working out the next)

7:50:  Start to log on for work

10am : Break time...start laundry

12:00:: Lunch for Shane and I 

Put laundry in dryer

clean up kitchen

check emails and Etsy shop

12:30: back to work

2:30 Break time Clean something:) or do bills

4:30 Stop working!!!

Errands

Prep for dinner

6:00 Eat dinner

clean up

start dishwasher

8:00 Bath time for Shane

9:30 Nigh Nigh time for Shane

Pick up the house 

Prep for tomorrow's meals

Wash face/prep for bed

Write or do something relaxing

10-11 GO TO SLEEP

Now obviously there are other little things that are on my to-do list that I did not add. Each day it will change depending on what I am doing that week and what needs to be cleaned. If you need to get your days in better order I highly recommend that you follow this 3 week series. You can start at any time. Making the most of your mornings really do set the tone for your day. If I can do it...anyone can do it:)!!!!!

Until we meet again...

Writing for me is therapeutic. I write about life..happy and sad. Unfortunately, tonight I am writing this post after the passing of my wonderful father in law this morning. My heart isn't just aching it is broken...crushed really. I write this more for myself. It will heal a bit of my broken heart. Not saying that I am a "writer". A writer would know where to put these (.) or these(,). I am so far from being able to ever call myself a writer...so tonight I write this a blessed daughter in law. A daughter in law that learned what true love for a person really looked like.

First off...my father in law...Gary...LOVED my sweet mother in law. I mean how can you not. If you ever saw the two of them together there was no denying they had true love. They were married for 37 years and you would think they were still in that honeymoon stage. Gary would sing to my mother in law, Jan, and she stared at him with tears in her eyes and pure joy. It blessed her soul and he loved making her happy. Hearing her share the little things they did for eachother and with eachother made me proud to have married Gary's son, as I know he had an awesome example of what it meant to love your spouse.

Next...he loved his boys. Now lets get real he was not a softy...unless it came to his family:). He was so proud of his boys. The dynamic the three of them had was so fun to watch. From the debates...the advice..to working in the grove or on the hot rods... he cherished every minute of it. I love that each of the boys have different character qualities that are just like their dad. Gary's best days were spent with AJ and Scott just tinkering.

Gary would always joke with us daughter in laws about who was his favorite based on who had made him the last dessert. I would make him these half sugar oatmeal cookies. He loved them because they had less sugar than most cookies. I would give anything to be able to make those for him again. He was my cooking buddy. It was our common interest and to be able to cook with him last night as he made us all stir fry was a gift from God. Marthe, my sister in law, made him the last dessert so I am sure she was his favorite! He told us both so many times how happy he was for his boys to marry us. This was so encouraging.

Lastly, he looooved his Grandkids! I can't even begin to describe the joy he had in his heart when he was with Katie, Siena, Shane and Declan. He recently bought a car seat for his car so he could pick Shane up and take him places. Shane was his best buddy. I think Shane appreciated his "stuff" more than anyone self. He loved it when Grandpa would let him play with his tools. Shane was his right hand man. I am most sad about the memories that will no longer be had between Shane and Grandpa. I am very grateful for the memories that were had though. Telling people that Gary had passed away today was so hard...but telling Shane was the hardest. I didn't know how to tell him honestly. The only person I have ever lost in my family, that I was somewhat close to, was my 99 year old Great Grandfather. So, I mentioned Grandpa was sick and that he would not be there when we got to the house. This was something that he has dealt with before though...the only difference is that Grandpa would get better and come back home. After a long day I was putting on his jammies and he said, "Where is Uncle"? I told him he was still here...he proceeded to ask where Aunt Mar Mar was and Grandma...I told him they were still here as well. He then asked, "where is Grandpa"? My heart dropped. I knew now was the time. I said Grandpa is not here, he is with Jesus. He got this frustrated look on his face saying "No he needs to leave His house and come back here." I told him Jesus is taking care of him and He loves Grandpa! He wasn't having it...a little jealous Jesus was with Grandpa. He said..."he just needs to take his medicine and be alive". Wow..out of the mouth of a child. His cousins had explained to him what had happened and that was so much better to come from them and in a way he could understand as much as he could. Again, Gary's Grandkids had no lack of love. They had this game that Grandpa made up...he had a glass jar filled with jelly beans. He would give them some if he got some kisses from the kids. They thought it was great as they got jelly beans and Gary thought it was great because he got kisses!!!

I started to write something on facebook, but I just couldn't sum it all up in a few words(obviously). Thank you all for your love, support and prayers. If you still have your daddy give him a big hug the next time you see him. I thank God for the wonderful memories I have made as a Gieser. We will do our best to continue on as Gary would have wanted. So...until we meet again...

Nautical 30th

A few weeks ago I turned 30...YIKES! I decided months ago that I 

 would plan my own party. It was so much fun. I got to do everything just they way I would want. I went with a nautical theme after seeing this pic:

I love all things nautical. This color palette was more sophisticated than the traditional blue and red nautical scheme. I called up my graphic designing sister(which by the way...if you do not have one of these...you should get one...they are awesome). I told her my basic ideas and she designed this(more to come about this invite and some exciting news)!!!!:

My In-laws graciously let me use their beautiful home for the party. I could go on and on with a ton of pics but I will share just a few:) Overall it was a wonderful night. I am so thankful for all who came to celebrate my 30th bday!

Ice Cream Sandwich Bar

See how I made these here

Love that this fence was perfect for my banner and life preserver!

Awesome plates from Michael's dollar section! Used my living room art as a backdrop.

Used a sand pail to make an arrangement with some spray roses, baby's breath and alstroemeria and a "sail away" sign(again from Michael's dollar section) for my centerpieces. Used navy and white striped napkins from Sur la table and the little votive containers are from Target:).

Weigh In Wednesday

I wish I was one of those super health conscious people. You know the ones that get joy from eating healthy and that like to eat their veggies. I am NOT. I am getting better but, I am slowly inching away from my veggies, as if they wont notice my absence. My body sure does. I am eating at least one vegetable a day but that is definitely not enough. My lack of meal planning and going to the grocery store hasn't helped my new healthy lifestyle either. 

I HATE grocery shopping. I would much rather live on Top Ramen and have that money I would have spent on groceries and spend it on a new pillow or some cute shoes. But alas...I may not make it to 40 if I lived on Top Ramen alone.

With that said my goal this week is to take the time to plan out all my meals and try to enjoy my shopping experience. This really helped when I first started (five weeks ago...can you believe it??!!).

 I have hit a major rut and am at a stand still with my weight loss. I know what to do...just actually doing it is the hard part. And no I did not exercise once...moving on...nothing to see here....I know I know...JUST DO IT!!!!

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So, I thought it would be fun this week to share some things that I am really loving right now. A lot of blogs do that weekly and it is really fun and I want to join them in their fun. Also, Weigh In Wednesday is not always going to be about weight loss...because that is a bit boring. So here it is..my favs this week....

Blog: 

If you don't already...you must follow Michaela Noelle Designs

She has a post every week where a guest blogs about what they love and hate (She loves me/She loves me not) which is where I got this idea. She is living my dream and going to design school. Super sweet girl...with lots of great advice. Check her blog out...you will love it.

Party Planning:

I love parties at all times...not just this week. I just planned my 30th bday and had so much fun. My favorite website to get ideas from right now is: Loralee Lewis She is an amazing paper designer and event stylist. Just look at this cute Kitty Cat Collection she made for a little girl's bday!!!

TV: Did you watch season 7 of Design Star???  It is my favorite show of all time. I really wanted Britany to win...but Danielle's show looks great! I get depressed when it is over. But, HGTV loves me...really... they even have a commercial that says" HGTV loves summer":) Anyways...they have a new show called Design Star All Stars! So...I get a few more weeks of all the Design Star wonderfulness...Happy Summer!

Proof they love me!!!

There you have it just a few things that are brightening up my summer. What are somethings you are loving right now????

"Oh be careful little eyes what you see..."

As a parent I try my best to protect my child from things I know will affect his little mind. My son loves action. I started to allow him to watch some shows that had more "guy stuff" going on then say, Sesame Street and Caillou. It was sad that he was losing interest in those shows of his youth:). But then when I took an extra look I found that the overall theme of these new shows were too mature for my guy. As far as three year olds go, I think he is pretty mature....but I was allowing him to watch something that was not appropriate. I don't want to be an over-protective parent. That leads to other problems...which is for another post:)...but I also don't want to be responsible for allowing my little guy to see and hear things that could cause him to grow up too quickly.The innocence of a child is so precious. Far too often  I sit next to a young child in a R rated movie. It breaks my heart. I am sure this is how God feels when we as adults see or hear something we shouldn't.

I love that Sunday School classic..."Oh be careful little eyes what you see...For the Father up above is looking down in love...". I know I sometimes feel that as an adult I don't have to guard my heart or mind anymore. I can watch whatever I want...say whatever I want...because I am an adult...right??? That couldn't be further from the truth. As a follower of Christ, we are continually reminded to guard our hearts( Proverbs 4:23.."Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life".)There are things that we should never see or hear even as adults. They really do have an affect on us...not at just that moment but for a lifetime.Proverbs 22:5 "In the paths of the wicked lie thorns and snares, but he who guards his soul stays far from them." Stay away!!! Beware!!!

 I hope I am not coming across judgmental. I have been struggling with this concept for awhile. I have had to turn down many a movie offers because I knew that it would do me no good to watch. Now, I am not saying that I have not seen a bad movie. The damage is done. But, I want to encourage you all( all 14 of you) to take a moment and ask yourself what good will this movie or book do for me. It may give you a laugh or two...provide you with some enjoyment or a little break from the kiddos...but it also is filling your mind with things that are of this world and do nothing for your walk with Christ. If your walk is important to you...I say protect yourself. I look like a prude time and time again to many of my friends. For so long I felt bad about it...but guess what, my thoughts were so much more pure than they are now that I have given in a few times(my own doing...not anyone's fault but mine) and watched something I knew was no good. 

It is getting harder and harder to watch anything that doesn't have something inappropriate in it. So just as you protect your children...protect yourself. They are watching you more than you know. If mommy and daddy talk about things that are good and pleasing to God it will be placed upon their hearts to do the same.

I read two blogs that really expressed better than I could how I feel. Below are the links.....

http://natyouraveragegirl.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-mike-is-51st-shade-of-gray.html?showComment=1343239996460#c3769829496534745758

http://www.purefreedom.org/blog/?p=320

*****This posts will replace my Weigh In Wednesday because it was my birthday and I treated myself to lots of things that were not on my diet and I am afraid to weigh myself and I am going back on my diet starting tomorrow...I promise!!!!!

Weigh In Wednesday

This will be my last post I do as a twenty something!!!! Tomorrow I turn the big 3-0. It is bittersweet....mostly bitter. I am not one who looks forward to getting older. I know you grow more wise and yada yada yada...you also grow more gray hair and wrinkles and fat. I think I felt like I had wasted my "good years"being fat and that is why getting older was depressing. But...things are looking up...well actually down...10 pounds down to be exact:). 

This past week my diet hasn't been horrible...it just hasn't been great. My veggie intake has lowered and I have started to eat dairy and gluten here and there. I did reach my 10 pound goal so I am super excited about that.  I did not work out once!!!! Uggghhh...it seems like the eating healthy part is easier than working out. I am sure in time I will get in the daily routine of working out. So, my goal is still to work out 3 times a week to start and my next goal is to lose 5 more pounds by the end of the month. 

Tomorrow I may indulge in some sugar....it kind of scares me though. I haven't had any in 3 weeks. So I may just have a bite of bday cake. No need to over indulge...and cause myself to go into shock on my bday!

Weigh In Wednesday

I know...I know it is Thursday. I thought about posting all day yesterday...but I just didn't wanna!!!! Mainly because I have hit a plateau in my weight loss. For 4 days last week I weighed the exact same! Now, I was happy I didn't gain but seriously! I wanted to hit my goal of 10 pounds in two weeks. That didn't happen...but as of this morning I am at minus 9:) So, I will take it. I have to say I realized I wasn't drinking as much water as I was in week one. I had also not been eating as much and as many veggies. So, I know what I have to do.

I think the fact that I am turning 30 is looming over me as well. It is a bit depressing. I already feel myself getting older. Mainly mentally. People are really bothering me. So...I have been staying away. That really has nothing to do with getting older that is really my hormones that apparently are super out of whack! I think now that I am eating better that I am really aware of all my imbalances. I am certain that sugar has been the main cause of my ailments and my hormones. I immediately got a migraine when it was "that time". I always thought that might be the cause and now that I have had no sugar..dairy(ok I did have a little) and gluten(might of had a tortilla) I am certain it is the hormones...or maybe that small amount of dairy and gluten messed me up??? Anyways, I am trying to be better about taking my vitamins right now too. That really helps. I currently take 1 multi-vitamin, 2 magnesium/calcium tablets, 1 CoQ10 and 1 Fish oil capsule a day.

Overall, I have much more energy...my anxiety has been flaring up lately...but I think that is due to my under eating...causing my blood sugar to drop. This weeks goal is to get in at least 3 days of cardio. That is not a whole lot but is a huge step for me. Eat Well...Feel Well....that was my attempt at being inspirational:).

Oh Happy Day!

Could it finally be...that we have a potty trained 3 year old in the house???!!! WooWoo. So I totally hate potty training. Mainly because it involves perseverance, patience, pee and poop. All of which stink. At about 18 months Shane showed interest in sitting on the pot. I was like oh yeah, this is going to be a breeze. He is just going to sit there and pee all by himself. Then I was like...wait aren't boys suppose to stand??? Being so small I thought sitting would work better...but it didn't really matter because it wasn't happenin'! I quickly learned that this was something he had to do on his own terms. I have friends who start potty training at a few months...some that start at 1...2...but by now I felt that I had failed as a Mama. He would never get into Preschool...I would have to home school him because he would be 5 still wearing diapers...but where would I find diapers big enough??? He was already in the largest size....would I have to buy Depends? These are the random thoughts that sped through my mind. 

I realized that I always started to train him on the weekends. Since I had no work I thought that was best. But in reality we always had some where to go and it was just not working. I am home all day...doing it during the week when I can't leave home would definitely work out better. So, this week I made it a point to really try and to not be lazy...because consistency is the key. Scott happened to come home and say that he really wanted to make this the week we really work on the potty training. So we were both on board.

 I have about 15 diapers left and I am sooo done with diapers. The best advice I did receive was to wait until they are ready...although I thought that may be a few years from now. He finally has spent the whole day with no diaper and has gone to the restroom like 30 times(not an exaggeration). So, now the test is to see how he does through the night. We aren't 100 percent there but he is growing up so fast. I mean the kid is peeing in the pot and chewing gum without swallowing it. S-l-o-w down! It is exciting and sad at the same time. Those diapers were the last little part of his baby phase. Most would think this would be the perfect time for another one...but I am going to relish in this no diaper phase for a bit longer:)

Summertime Stripes

If I could, I would have stripes on at least one wall in every room of my house. But, that may look a little too circusy...so I have a few pieces...like pillows and benches that are striped. Yesterday, while browsing Pinterest I was seeing a lot of bathrooms with stripes. I immediately got up and painted stripes on one wall of my bathroom(in two hours). Yes, my name is Summer and I am a painting junkie. I actually love painting so it wasn't a chore for me. My bathroom which is like the size of a bathroom stall at Chili's(that is the first place that came to my mind...I am hungry), but you get the idea, it is small. 

When we first moved in I knew it had to be painted. I chose a color by Valspar called Smoke Infusion. It is a blueish, greenish, grey color. Really pretty, but a bit too dark for the small space. We had to paint the ceiling too as it was hideous...so to make it easier on us we painted it the same color. I think that darkened the room too. Anyways, needless to say I have never been happy with the results and knew I needed to add some white stripes. So....that is what I did and I wish I would have done it sooner, but it is now complete and I love it!!!!! So...here's to stripes....everywhere!!! 

Forgot to take a before pic...but here is another wall with the color.

I did have some help!

Ta daaaa...so much brighter and stripey:)

Weigh In Wednesday-July 4th edition

Happy 4th of July everyone! As promised(and on time) here is what is on my mind this Wednesday. My healthier lifestyle change is in full effect! It has been super hard. I am soooo sick of chicken and spinach. I would kill for a cheeseburger right now. Today's festivities are going to be a true test. I will be surrounded by many temptations. I think I might just stay in the pool all day:(.

The thing that keeps me going is that I have lost 7 pounds since last Wednesday!!!! I feel really good too. I am not as tired and my blood pressure is way down. So, think program I am on is six weeks total then you can add back in the gluten and dairy to see how your body reacts. I still have to remember to limit those amounts. After the six weeks my goal is to still not have any processed foods and add only a small amount of sugar into my diet each month. I think the sugar is what is my highest intolerance. 

So, have fun today with your friends and family. Try to make wise food decisions on this holiday. I know it is hard but sooooo worth it. I will leave you with a healthy recipe to enjoy:)

http://drhyman.com/blog/2010/05/18/recipe-garlic-and-herb-hummus/

Garlic and Herb Hummus

Ingredients
3 garlic cloves, roasted
1 tbsp. olive oil
1 can (15 oz.) chick peas
½ tsp. paprika
½ tsp. fresh parsley
¼ tsp. cayenne pepper
¼ tsp. sea salt
¼ c. sesame tahini
½ c. water
1 tbsp. plus ½ tsp. lemon juice

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Peel the garlic and rub with olive oil. Wrap garlic cloves in foil and place in the warm oven for 20–25 minutes or until garlic is soft and slightly roasted. Remove from oven and cool.

Drain and wash chick peas and drain to dry.

In the food processor, add all ingredients and spices. Puree the mixture into a fine paste, no chunks. Remove from processor and turn into a small bowl.

Cover and chill.

Makes: 4 servings
Prep time: 20 minutes
Cook time: 0 Minutes

Enjoy with some fresh veggies:)

Opposites Attract

After reading the title of this blog and you started signing Paula Abdul's "Opposites Attract" then you most likely were born in the 80's:) This song talks about how to people in love can be so different. This is a very random post. I often think about how opposite my husband and I are. Although, we may be completely different in our personalities...a lot of our interests are the same. We both love good food and fine dining. We could spend a whole Saturday driving around just looking a homes. We love going to open houses, model homes and going to the beach to see how the "others" live. I have to admit I love going to car shows with The Hubs as well. And....we love to laugh. I am not serious at all...so next to Godliness...funniness was a must as a quality in my husband. So anyways, I was jotting down all the opposites in our personalities and interests. I thought it was pretty funny and really made me realize how well we balance each other out...so here is the list:

#1....The most obvious is...I am shy and he is outgoing:)

#2...I am always cold...he is hot(oh yeah) 

#3...I am a home-body....he likes to go-go-go

#4...I LOVE to shop and spend hours doing so...he shopped for his whole summer wardrobe in 7 minutes(not fair)

#5...I love to watch "mindless" tv as The Hubs calls it and he likes to watch documentaries...booooooring!

#6...I like a big spoon...he likes a small spoon:)

#7...I could live my life with no animals...he would have 10 dogs if he could. 

#8...I could live on the sand and be in the ocean everyday..I love the beach...Scott HATES the beach...unless we are there to cruise or for dinner...but his precious toes are not touching that sand..I know so sad:(.

#9...I am organized...he is well..not.

#10...I am a planner...he is not

#11...He is a go getter.....I am NOT

So, there it is. Even though some of these are pretty major differences...we push each other and encourage each other to do better.  God knew what He was doing when He put us together and I am so thankful. Love you Boo!

Our Engagement pic:) Oh my have I grown...mentally and physically...lol

Ahoy Matey

 I have to say I love all things to do with the ocean...especially ANCHORS! I am even having a nautical themed 30th birthday party. I also looooove stripes... so nautical anything is just amazing in my book. I was working on some decor for my bday and thought I would share a little sneak peak before the big day!

Step 1: Take 12x12 scrapbook paper and make an accordion. Do this twice.

Step 2:Now combine the two pieces of paper and gather them in the center and tie a piece of baker's twine and secure.

Step 3: Now you can open up each side of the fan and use double sided tape to secure each side forming a circle. I added a circle piece to the center to add a little extra charm:).

Voila! You have a firecracker/burst/rosette thingy. These are really inexpensive and easy. They would be super cute at a 4th of July party or a kids party...and of course any nautical themed 30 year old's party:)